So I haven't updated in a while.

This weekend was fun.

Friday night I stayed home and watched movies.

Saturday I went to go see Harry Potter and I LOVED it!

Sunday was a day full of shopping and my sister's birthday at Ron's Virtual World.

I bought a black corset, a winter jacket and some accessories. I am so happy I got the corset! I'll eventually get a picture on here, but for now you must visulize it.

uh, the party was great. I was late getting home from shopping, so by the time I got home Rachael was in my living room. She always comes to my sister's birthday's with me. So I'm not lonely. My dad had her watching an Amish show and I almost pissed my pants it was so funny. Ha ha!

So i messed up on my sister's loot bags, and Rach made fun of me. I febreezed my pants and made a huge fuss over what I would wear, and eventually we left for Ron's. Me and Rach spent the majority of time on DDR, which was fun. I think I'm getting a bit better.

OH GOD I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO UPDATE!!

Uh okay you know what to hell with the party I had a good time ha ha. I love having Rach coming every year. We actually held hands in the car and I guess that caught me off guard. I was of course forcing her, but after a while she stopped fighting and I couldn't believe how long we held hands in the car.

-Insert familiar twinge of pain here-

Me, my dad and my mom went to Kangas for a later supper while Jenni went to church group. I saw my friend Carly there, and I didn't even recognize her with her hair up!

Today started out real late. I didn't get to school till like 9:35ish!! I had to haul my guitar with me all morning >__<

Guitar is so much fun, I am slowly getting the hang of chords now. Before all I could do was melody, but now I can do some songs with chords. Like 'About A Girl' and 'Free Falling'. Me, Carolyn and Lea are presenting 'About A Girl' tomorrow for the class. I am so pumped, I finally got the hang of the song! And it is quite easy, it consists of two main chords, G and Em.

So, what else is new in my life.

Oh yes. The whole Becka nightmare things.

We all know the sad pathetic tale of my nightmares, which used to consist of one main person (coffrachcoff) but now I am noticing Becka in them too.

Last weekish, I had a really strange dream about her.

I was in the History room (I've only been in it once for detention) and I was in 'Opera' class. Well, I had picked up a book with the lyrics for the Opera 'Phantom of the Opera'. Well if you don't know it, I'll tell you now. That opera is me and Becka's opera. OURS.

I began singing the beginning part (In sleep he sang to me . . .) and when it came the part for Phantom to sing, I saw a man at the top of a stair case (where did it come from?). He was like Prince Charming, and he continued singing as he came down the stairs. He then turned a corner and disappeared from sight, and when I did see him again, he had turned into Becka. So at that point I had woken myself up and I was just in tears.

When I had went to school that morning, I wa in an okayish mood but a bit bummed out from that dream. Now, in the morning, a song plays before class starts. Well an Our Lady Peace song (can't recall the name of it right now) came on, and Zoe grabbed me and she was like "Oh this is my song! And . . . it's Becka's song too!"

Okay. 3-2-1 BOOM.

I cried. And Zoe was trying to calm me down and then she started to cry and all of a sudden we became 'emo'.

Oh fuck you stereotypers. (Jason).

I really don't understand all this about Becka. I mean I still love her but . . . oh I just don't know.

Semi is coming up. Katye asked me if I wanted to go because I couldn't find anyone else to go with me. No one wants to go with me. I am so hated. I was thinking about bringing Becka -ironic- but I think it is only for PACI students. I think I'm gonna bring Becka to the next school dance. I miss being around her.

I am addicted to this one song, Pride by HIGH AND MIGHTY COLOR. Ah, great band.

So . . .  I think that is my mind in a nutshell.

Oh and I am planning to re do my blog COMPLETLY. New name and shit. Expect that sometime after Christmas.

~Toodles